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so im going back to school in a couple days. is it bad that im happy about the fact that ill be 4 hours and 290 miles away from my girlfriend? now dont get me wrong i love her and i love spending time with her and i do miss her when im not with her but idk, i guess its because its what im used to and its what ive grown comfortable with. like i used to see her everyday and i was ok with that, but ive gotten used to not seeing her everyday and i guess i really didnt readjust to seeing her so often again. i kinda feel like shes getting clingy which i know shes not, idk guess the whole me never being in a legit relationship factor is coming through, thats really a bullshit excuse and should really stop using it. ok im gonna put something out there, the real reason i dont like relationships and i always try to bail out as fast as i can is because im afraid of becoming my fasther and cheat so i always try to "escape" before i get too deep and involved in a relationship, cause i dont want to risk that. cause frankily i like girls alot and i like alota different girls, thats not even true right now cause theres only one girl that has my attention right now, wow thats a scary thought i dont even know what i was trying to stay when i started this its not like i want to be far away from her but at the same time i do. yeh i know confusing im confusing myself right now. grr this is annoying just when i think ive gotten ove my issues i realize i havent. omg eww gross let me stop im starting to sound like one of those whiny annoying bitches.
so yeh random thought =3 is hella funny RayWilliamJohnson. i was straight doing your mom.