hmmm...

i need a water proof tape recorder to put in the shower thats wehre i get my best ideas and as soon as i get out i lose them. damn. like i just had basically my entire blog thought out and then by the time i get outa the shower and come upstairs to write it i totally forgot it fuck, it was a good one too oh well.
i think it was something about making this blog like my daily journal putting down my thoughts and what not instead of just random stuff. since i know you two are the only ones that are gonna read it and id probably tell u guys anyway. crap what was it it was good stuff too.
i think it was something like saying that ive never had an outlet for whats on my mind and whats bothering me and what my problems are cause i dont want to burden people with my problems and every has theyre problems i they dont need to worry about mine yet thats what i do i help people with theyre problems and always cram mine away thats not the healthies thing so i think im gonna stop doing that and use this as a place to do that. i find it funny how i told mom im depressed and her first reaction is to tell me to get over myself and then today shes like im worried about u waiting too long to tell me when something is wrong cause i told her not to worry about me. and aparently she worried im suicidal. im not gonna kill myself and if i was i wasnt gonna be one of those attention seeking idiots, id just do it and shed have no idea when i was gonna do it.

p.s. Ke$ha id hit that. jay google her.